definitely in working for her i got to see one example of one time period of one facet of a new yorker (adopted by the rest)s life and i appreciate and value that
theres more to see
meanwhile ill record my own to learn from it

done respectfully in less that two weeks but im just talking about work lol howd that happen
packed all school mishaps and emotional baggage into having those extra 12 hours a week to address them or choose 8 to be calmer and advance the work environment/fulfillment carry

boss has this balance of being terrifying and undiycirnable whilst being terrified at points that’s unhealthy for me to be around because shes too human and a figure probably stems from my desire to be one or the other but whatever

started intensely compartmentalizing my stuff lately and i think that’s a good general direction started intensely compartmentalizing my stuff lately and i think that’s a good general direction

started intensely compartmentalizing my stuff lately and i think that’s a good general direction

ok so
when #beenarrested i lost my charger case
which was my strongest sense of security in ny
that my limitations in controlling both what affects my actions had against others and myself could be tempered
by the checking in and up on social networks on family taken into the social
and deleted facebook wall posts
which im lucky my mother is able to do all the same
for i wasnt sober
not that sobriety guarantees anything
especially my safety
but i fall from my original point
i have yet to do a substance where
losing my glasses and vision during isnt horrifying and dark where darkness is constructed
have yet to wake up w body goals
unless guilt dreams are the new monochrome
idk but i deserve to stay here this summer is the hardest sentence to think about as of late
and im even cloudier when turnt
i meant what i meant when i cut off my access just as when i cut the organizations out of me at the end of high school
health by reckless destabilization of connectivity
as new connectivity and lunges at that
just lmk

happy 4🙏20